7 ) Siem Reap – Cambodia
We are dealt different cards as we set out in the beginning. This child had little else than the shirt it was wearing and the hammock in the rowboat, where the child lived – at least during the day. It’s times like these you feel so small and weak. I wanted to help, give the child a shelter and provide food, but when I looked on I saw another child and then another in the same situation. Of course these children are put a bit on display, in order to awaken these feelings within charitable people, in hope of a hand out. And that’s why you can’t do anything, the child’s life doesn’t necessarily improve if I give money and I don’t want to be responsible for this kind of exploitation. You are overwhelmed by two different kinds of feelings. You feel so sorry and hopeless for them, and at the same time so thankful for what you have. My problems diminished in comparison to theirs. I try to remember this feeling whenever I feel sorry for myself, for whatever minor thing that bothers me at that time.